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WARNING: This might get pretty long….
I’ve definitely changed since my high school years, but sometimes I don’t know if it’s in a good or bad way. Also, I felt in some aspects, I haven’t even improved upon areas that really need help (like my social skills). Now, I feel like all these changes have been a bit overwhelming, but they should be confronted before I move on with my life (Way to have an identity crisis at 22…). Ok, so some changes since high school until now:
1. I’m not into anime anymore- Not really sure what happened here, but I think it’s just that sitting in front of my computer for 20min per week, per series that just deters me from watching it. Also, I feel like most of the animes being made don’t really fit my tastes anymore. (I, however, really enjoy reading manga, maybe because I read a lot quicker than watching a 20min show)
2. Since around junior year of high school, I kinda stopped liking the visual kei scene. I dunno if my hearing changed or not, but I felt like some visual kei bands were relying heavily on the way they looked instead of the way they sounded… Music should always be #1! But with that said, the only J-rock bands I really listened to recently are like Girugamesh, Kuroyume/SADS, Duel Jewel, Cali-Gari, and An Cafe…
3. I started listening to a lot more K-Pop, specifically Big Bang and SS501. There’s just something about T.O.P’s voice that makes me love him so much and SS501 just keeps making catchy songs that aren’t annoying
4. I am not so much a tomboy… well I don’t know about this one. I used to never care about cleansers and makeup and all that nonsense, but then I started getting bad acne and now I’ve invested so much into face wash, face masks/moisturizers and BB cream… But I still love my gaming, although it’s just RPGs/MMOs, I’m not really a FPS person, but I might get there one day…
5. Great news, I started to get back into drawing again (started this year), but I’ve taken a different approach. I don’t really draw manga chars anymore, but more real life pictures of people (so far, it’s been G-Dragon, T.O.P and Mika Nakashima…) For some reason, I don’t like the way my manga chars end up, so I’ve been looking at pictures of celebrities online and copying them, focusing on shading and forming a realistic picture, but unfortunately, they don’t look like the original people, so I tend not to tell people it’s GD or TOP…
6. I lost weight! Finally, I lost a significant amount of weight and I’m not back to my size in high school, which is still fat… But at least I know what works for me and I will continue the hard work 
7. I actually procrastinate more than in high school (definitely bad). I used to have a rule that I would do work in the morning and have to finish by noon or 3pm (depending on the assignment) and I actually did live by this rule. And in the afternoons, I spent watching TV, playing games and drawing. Nowadays, it’s like, “let me watch some TV, I have plenty of time…” or “Just one dungeon in this video game…” What happened to me? Seriously? Usually people grow up and be more productive…
All these changes… I don’t know who I am at times or how I should act… I’m 22, I feel like i should be independent or at least mature, neither of which I am at all. Also, I’m still socially awkward and I have been having trouble making friends, especially with the people in my BME class. The worse thing about staying at the same school is that all my close friends left/graduated and now I’m stuck with all the acquaintances that are STILL acquaintances. And trust me, we didn’t want to be friends then and we don’t want to be now. We can talk about class work and the like, but if I can’t have a conversation with someone on multiple levels, then I cannot be friends with them. And there’s apparently one guy in my year that seems to be picking out certain people to be friends with and it’s a bit annoying… Also, it seems cliques have formed in my class, enough said. And some people are just awkward to begin with, so me and them being awkward = no good…. Ugh, I need to meet the people outside my class…
I’m just so socially awkward…. Never knowing the right thing to say… And I don’t talk to people I don’t really know much. It’s once that I start talking to you that it’s easy, but it’s just the initial greeting that’s always awkward…
Last weekend, I bought Korean groceries (SO EXPENSIVE 
) so I could make my own Korean food. It’s not too bad, I can only make the spicy rice cake dish and some side dishes, but that’s it. Btw, I bought Soybean paste instead of Blackbean paste so I can’t make Jajjangmyeon…. I can’t read, ok?
I GOT SHADOW HEARTS COVENANT<3<3<3<3<3 Need I say more?
So lemme just make a quick list of things I did before I forget:
1. October 9/10 – Spent weekend with friends in Flushing: Dim sum, Pool, D&B (funny story involved) and dog park
2. Had an exam in Cell Bio Engineering, which I aced! I’m #1! But I’m just happy I beat this one kid haha
3. Did better than I thought on a take home exam in Particle Physics
4. Went home for the weekend ~ but stopped by Flushing and Times Square before I went home.
5. Got my sexy new phone~ LG Dlite, the blue color is a lot richer than it does on the t-mobile site. I don’t know why the ads for T-mobile showed completely different shades of blue and pink….
So anyways, my friends and I were eating at Dave & Buster’s and watching the football game on ABC (Poor UMich). After that, the news came on. The headline was “Child Stabbed” with the D&B logo behind it, so we all pointed it out to each other. The next thing shown was where the D&B was located and it was the Westbury one, where we were… At that point I think my table did enough pointing at the TV that the workers noticed and inconspicuously changed it to hockey. Lol, we were wondering why there was the news vans outside….
So I planned a day in the city on Friday where I wanted to eat Pho and Korean food… The pho was good, but the Korean food wasn’t too good. I was disappointed and I felt bad cause I brought like 8 other people into this place for dinner and it wasn’t too good. Also had Kung Fu Bubble Tea, which is really really good!! The tapioca was flavored, which was a surprise for me haha. I had the green milk tea, which was very yummy